Bekya, I am happy to hear you are reading books with good messages. At times like this you have to take in all the goodness you can.

I believe what you are going through is totally normal. You parented children together and that creates a tremendous bond.

I think the best thing to do is talk with him, and the girls. First speak with him and tell him your thoughts. See if he's on the same page. If not, then you need to carry on. I'm sure it's apinful, but try to remember the pain will subside in time. Keep taking life one day at a time and turn to God for strength. He'll be sure to give it to you.

Give yourself a big hug for hanging in there and hug the kiddies too!