Oh, Flossie, you are not alone at all. When people came to me with "I'm sorry about your mother (or father)" - well, what could they say? Or what could I say? But, I was so relieved with each of their deaths. Who wants to see someone suffer like that? And we know they are readyto die. So, of course there is relief. The only tears that I shed were tears that they had to suffer and tears that they lived so long after they had lost any quality of life. You are very definitely not alone.